A year

After "getting wasted" part of creating Vision with my MC team Marina and me were coming back home - drunk, happy, discussing guys. I could never imagine that in one year my attitude to some people will change so much.
I switched on my laptop, as usual, as I do anytime I enter this flat which is my "home" for almost a year already. Marjam was online. She is one of the most amazing people I've met at IPM. And Albert was online.
The main thing that happend with me in 06/07: people.

A.R.

Even doing something the-first-time-ever I want to be excellent.
I simply HATE not being able to perform, I hate feeling "I can't".
This week I was writing text for Annual Report. 24 pages in Russian and English. I'm not satisfied, for sure. I think I could ask somebody for feedback. I could write better.
It was the first time when I tried it.
So, the main learning from the process is "enjoy the learning process":)
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About two amazing personalities who read my blog.

I like to talk to Ira. She supports me when I behave the Most Stupid Girl in the world: feel guilty because can't save the world right now. "Supports" - I mean that she tells me "stop it! life is beautiful". I love when she is emotional and says smth like:
"pri etom po otdelnosti oni zamechatelnye liudi, a vtroem oni pridurki..."


Sasha is the person whom I'd really like to work with. And his essay is the only brilliant thing in the shit I call "annual report". Sasha is the person whom I learn from. Whom I haven't seen since NY party "blue sofa".

to remember this days

I feel like cleaning my table, putting books on the shelves in order, washing & ironing all my clothes. There are some small things which take our attention, which disturb us when we are doing smth big and great. I feel, that my extremely intensive life will become much easier, if I manage to delete all the stuff I don't need, but still keep with me.
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I need to share somewhere: the most popular phrase for the last days is "i feel unexperienced & that's great feeling!".
So do I. Annual repor preparation took much more time than I expected, but I love this work. And I again have the passion to do my best. I can explain - the measurement of "doing your best" in managing the team, working on strategies is non-physical. You can't touch it. Annual report booklet you can. And all the misprintings, mistakes with logo, wrong translation, quality if photos is in your hands and even your children can see it in many years. So, a kind of problem that I see in MC work now is that you can't clearly see your result. Even if you failed in implementing the strategy, it will stay for you for some time and then go from you memory. You can't check it in 10 years.
What could be the results we see? Or what should be the process of learning for person from creating concrete results to managing untangible?
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Transition has started & I love the process. Kowledge delievered by currents are exactly what I wanted to see. General feeling is that the level is really high. People are much more smart that I expected - and that's amazing! It helps me trust them more.
And I learn a lot. The motivation is not only my MCP term, but the things I'm going to do after it & the ways I'm going to use my experience.
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Message from Ivan is cool. Ira applied. Kristina has relevant background & generally interested in ER in Russia. I WANT to apply for this event & that's the first thing I want so much since...
Inna invited me to the cinema. We have meeting with Gosha. School people meeting on thursday.
Other questions to anwer: family, studies, work, journalism.

Everything sounds cool.