Sunday sea dreams

I planned to work today. It's already 1 p.m., I'm still reading my notes from university, trying to strengthen the intention to graduate finally this year.

Topic of my relations with university is very painful still... Ok, starting the story from the very beginning:

I started my 10 amazing schoolyears earlier than my classmates, as I have a birthday in autumn and was smart enough to pass exams to the best school in the city when I was 6. I always was a good pupil - not really hard-working, but smart, curious, talkative and that's usually enough for school, even such cool one as I had. I also was striving for more than endless homeworks - sports, dancing classes, intellectual competitions. In secondary school I was involved in many extra-curriculum activities which finally influenced my grades in diploma (or how is this document called?). I was not excellent, cause I didn't put ANY efforts in studying, I was just very good and had fun. I was not among the most popular girls or bookworms. I was (and, hopefully am) the person you'll never mix with someone else. Unique. I was building my life in a special way, unconsiously. Probably, I'd be nice character for some hollywood movie (romantic one) as a best-friend of the Girl:)

So, I am perfectionist in a way... Ok, as I was accepting anything but the best in my life (if write in school newspaper that to have personal column at first page and special awards at annual ceremony...) I decided to pass exams to the only University - Moscow State, faculty of journalism which is the best in the country. I became a student. It was also easy. (Later I entered two more universities: PR department in Krasnodar Technical University and Sociology in State University of Management. But quit because one was boring, another didn't want me to study in Moscow at the same time).

So, first and second years were ok. After I found smth more interesting to do in life. Work in PR-agency, in AIESEC, travel a lot (right during exams time). And I found out that I suck in "must do" things which I don't care about. My university was already thinking if they need such a student - showing up once a year, passing exam with good mark and leaving in unknown direction.

The situiation is still the same - I have a looong list of exams to pass and just 15 + 15 days during next 4 months when I will be in Moscow. It doesn't mean that I'm free - I still have some MCP job to do:) But at least city is the same.

Why is the topic painful? Because all the aiesecers manage to study very good, sometimes even in two universities. And me, such a smart girl, who is still going higher with her dreams, who is ready to conqure the world, is the Worst Student Ever.



Here is my confession. True. You can delete me from your friendlist now.